"The Feeling Of Nothing At All"

"The Feeling Of Nothing At All"
By: Brendan Cadman 


I can't escape this feeling,
this feeling of nothing at all.
And I'm falling in, 
falling into the deep black abyss.
And all I want,
baby all I want is to feel you again.

I drive down to the ocean side,
up the pacific high going 95.
Outstretched arm flying in the wind,
past whipping cars,
not raising a hair on my skin.  
I step outside digging my toes in the sand,
as the holes around my feet cave in.
Wading into the dark blue,
with the water up to my waist, 
floating there patiently for you.
But you're nowhere to be found,
as I slowly start to drown. 

I can't escape this feeling,
this feeling of nothing at all.
And I'm falling in, 
falling into the deep black abyss.
And all I want,
baby all I want is to feel you again.

Just as I lose my final breath,
the liquid drains from around my lips.
Slamming down the glass mug on the counter top,
from the last stinging and inebriating sips.
Surrounded by the glare,
of one hundred bloodshot eyes,
I still feel so alone,
wanting only to bask in the warmth,
of your elusive glow. 
Stumbling home under the spotlight,
of quiet and vacant city streets. 
The silence sends a lightning blot through my soul,
to the center of this sobering realization,
of just how far apart we've grown. 

I can't escape this feeling,
this feeling of nothing at all.
And I'm falling in, 
falling into the deep black abyss.
And all I want,
baby all I want is to feel you again. 

There was no distance he would not go,
no mountain that he would not scale. 
At a moment's notice and at the drop of hat,
he responds to the call without fail.
They say the best gift you can give,
is the one that you would give yourself. 
So he spends his life giving others,
the one thing that he can not give himself. 
Hypnotized by the pure beauty in her smile,
he puts on a mask to get close enough,
to learn her secrets with no intention to defile.   

I can't escape this feeling,
this feeling of nothing at all.
And I'm falling in, 
falling into the deep black abyss.
And all I want,
baby all I want is to feel you again.

She was brave enough to face it all.
Brave enough to stand outside those walls.
Standing in the cold and the rain,
fighting off the wolves and pushing through the pain. 
He was afraid to let down his guard.
Afraid to be vulnerable and small,
afraid that she would see that he was fraud.
On the scales his fear outweighed his love,
keeping her at arm's length,
never revealing who he truly was. 
The rains began to fall with heavy weight,
leaving her with no choice
but to leave him to his incontestable fate.

I can't escape this feeling,
this feeling of nothing at all.
And I'm falling in, 
falling into the deep black abyss.
And all I want,
baby all I want is to feel you again.

Standing outside of your house,
knocking on the door with bloody knuckles,
you open up under one condition,
telling me that I have to confess.
So I start to talk and tell you everything,
placing my heart and honor on my sleeve,
getting this weight off of my chest.
We embrace and you forgive me,
telling me there is hope for us yet.
I walk away knowing deep down,
everything I said was in jest. 

I can't escape this feeling,
this feeling of nothing at all.
And I'm falling in, 
falling into the deep black abyss.
And all I want,
baby all I want is to feel you again.